My husband and I have been together for 5 years and married for three, and in the last year we've been talking about having kids. We looked into adoption, and fostering to adopt but both seem like options that won't work for us so naturally he brought up actually trying to have our own. I always knew I didn't love the idea of birthing kids but it wasn't until recently that I realized I'm absolutely terrified of it. I had a pregnancy scare (that's what I called it, my husband wasn't scared at all lol) maybe a year and a half back and it was the first time in my life I've ever actually felt so scared I was very briefly suicidal all I could think about was how terrible birth would be, it was the worst three days of my life before I took a test. I already have very mild depression and anxiety, and I have a naturally slow metabolism that makes lossing weight almost immposible (I'm being treated for hypothyroidism currently) and I'm finally at a point with in my life where I'm happy with my body. I like what I weigh, I'm in the best health ever, and I'm happy. I'm just scared pregnancy will change all of that. I know we will be great parents, we have a great support system and I'm currently a stay at home wife now so work won't ever be a problem. I just don't know if I can make it through a pregnancy. Can anyone relate? Or has anyone who ever felt this way had kids and can share their experiences?