Ever since I did the pregnancy test I have been feeling sick all the time, can’t stand smells of cooking or poo(!) and totally exhausted. No energy to play with my little one or be even slightly affectionate to my husband. He’s doing everything and I feel useless. Nappy changes of my toddler make me gag and the house is a heap with jobs piling up. But I want a baby and should feel bless and happy right?! This adds to my self loathing. Scan isn’t til I’m week 14 which feels like forever (currently ten weeks)