Struggling

[1stTimeMumofOne]

Currently 35+4. First baby. Single mum. Baby girl due. Struggling.

So i have hated pregnancy ever since i found out. I cant wait to meet my baby and have an amazing life with her. I just cant handle pregnancy. The first trimester sickness and fatigue and hormones made me instantly hate being pregnant. The stretch marks and the belly and the not fitting into clothes didnt help either. But i have reached my limit tonight.

I am now almost 4 weeks away from my due date and i am sat crying my eyes out.i just cant do this anymore. I have a very very large baby growing in there so the pressure is horrendous. I have a suspected UTI also which i am waiting on tests as i had an allergic reaction to the antibiotics they wanted to give me. I have pelvic pain, back pain. Hip pain and constant heart burn. The head is so low i feel like my vagina is going to drop off. I want to sleep so bad but the insomnia is killing me and i cannot for the life of me get comfy. I have really badly swollen feet and leg cramps that i have to live in flight socks and use ice packs and baths. My stomach is so sensitive that i can hardly touch it. I am really really struggling now and i am so depressed 🙁 this is the hardest experience i have ever had in my life and i am at my limit now.

I feel like i am the only person to despise pregnancy this much and i think i am really annoying my family because of my complaining but i am just so miserable now i am not coping at all 🙁

Bless you . Didn't want to read and run!

I didn't particularly enjoy pregnancy either although I didn't have symptoms anywhere near as bad as yours.

Is your midwife aware/ helping?

You're not alone, I hate being pregnant! There's no "glowing" for me! This is my 3rd pregnancy and it's so far been the worst.

I understand your feelings, you get to a point where you just want your body back to yourself. Don't worry, I think it's quite normal to feel this way and the females in your family ought to do well to remember it themselves ( sadly we don't otherwise we wouldn't have more than 1 child)

Have you tried a shiatsu pillow massager to help with back/hip pain... I found mine to be a life saver

Xx

Yeah I sat in tears for the last few weeks of mine, my dd is 3 weeks now!

It feels like it's dragging on forever and then when their here you forget all about it, i was actually sad I wouldn't be pregnant again and have all the shit (dd is last baby for us).

Do you have anyone to help out at home or give you a break? I'd suggest treating yourself as much as possible, have a lovely bath with some nice smellys. Have a girly evening with friends if u can. Anything that can boost your mood.

I'd also suggest speaking to your midwife if you are really uncomfortable especially with the pelvic pains there maybe something more they can do. It's sounding very promising though that the end is near so please don't feel too bad because your little one will be here soon.

It's hard I also hate being pregnant and I'm having baby number 4. (Unplanned) it's hard. I don't feel myself when pregnant and just run down in general. In my 2nd pregnancy i was very unwell with mental health and reffered to specialist midwife, psychologist and put on medication, there is help out there if you feel you need it. Xx

Being pregnant is hard. Being pregnant with additional pregnancy related issues is very, very hard.

I had bad SPD and the last four weeks were a real struggle.

I have every sympathy for you, it sounds really difficult.

However, I felt amazing after giving birth. My swollen ankles went right down, SPD disappeared and I had a gorgeous newborn in my arms. I appreciate that it's not the same for everyone, but I felt a million times better. I hope it's the same for you. You are in the final stretch, not long to go now!

Is there anyone who can help you out in these last few weeks?

I have now been hospitalised for 7 days on an antibiotic drip as i have a UTI cause by group b strep so i have to have urgent treatment. This has been the main cause for me feeling ill, vomiting and having pains.
There is hope i can enjoy the end of pregnancy after this is fixed x

Good you got the UTI treated. Hope you get a bit of relief from now on. I read your first post and it reminded me of when I was feeling at 36 weeks pregnant. I gave birth at 37.