I posted this on the ante/post natal depression thread, but moved it here for traffic. Am in hospital with ante natal depression again for respite. The second time in as many weeks. The psychiatrist has increased the dose of the mood stabiliser I'm on, but apparently it can take weeks to work. I''m 35 weeks now and I just want the baby out. I can;t stand feeling like this, I just can't. My consultant said they'd schedule a section for 39 weeks, but it has now been scheduled for 39 + 6, which is shit. I cant go on like this. I just can't. I feel guilty for taking up a bed, I don;t think the midwives really understand why I'm here. They keep saying they'll organise CPNs and the crisis team to come and visit me in my house, but that's the last thing I want. The only things that bring me joy at the moment are my kids and the thought of my baby coming. This is hell.