Hi everyone. Last week I found out I was pregnant. My partner believed he couldn't have children and seemed happy about the news. He doesn't have any children and has spent most of his life single, free and enjoying to party. I was settled at 17 and have had 2 children who are both teens now.
I met my new partner 16 months ago and have lived with him for 10 months. My children from my previous relationship live with their dad although I have regular contact.
I am 35 and currently working two jobs and just about to start my second year of uni. Life is a juggling act and my relationship with my partner is a Roller-coaster. When we are good we are amazing, but in the time we've been together he has had inappropriate contact with three people and we argue a lot. Normally after he has had a night of alcohol and drugs, and when I approach him about what I believe are addictions I'm bombarded with abuse. Don't get me wrong I can be hard work at times also.
I'm so confused on what I should do, do I keep baby hope that a miracle happens and we can bring our child into the living home it deserves. Reality is I'll more than likely end up a single parent and have to give up my dreams of finishing uni. Or do I have an abortion, which would more than likely mean I'd lose my relationship with a man that I do love immensely disbite the flaws and end up staying back with my mum and dad.