Hi..
I had a little boy recently in January, i had a really bad pregnancy(losing my waters at 20wks and then going into labour 27+6) long story short my little one struggled,he’s currently doing really well and at home on oxygen, i have trouble with his biological father(non-molestation order) and i don’t agree to contact due to his violence,drug taking and temper, his family aren't much better i’m frightened he will try and take me to court for contact,my sons on home oxygen and alot of meds and i really don’t trust him to have him alone or with his family.
Anyway back on subject, i recently found out i’m pregnant again with baby number 2(only around 5+2) so early days, but this one will have a different father,do you think this matters at all? I’m worried my children will grow up to resent me for it,for having different last names and maybe not looking alike. Also does anyone have any experience with 2 children under 2 my little boy is only 6 months so there will be just 14 months between the 2, my son is a handful at the moment needing oxygen,meds and alot of care and extra attention because of being so early(3months) i feel really guilty having to split my time when he will be so young still. I am only young myself too, i come from a mixed family (my mum has 7 of us including me)all of us have different last names so i don’t know why its bothering me so much,i just can’t bare for those looks of narrow minded people, sat judging because i have 2 different baby fathers and so close together too. I’m also really nervous incase the pregnancy goes wrong.
I would really appreciate and advice or opinions anything is welcome just maybe settle my mind a little. If you want to know any more detail then feel free to ask,i’m open when it comes to this as i’m struggling to get my head around it all!