My partners nans funeral is tomorrow, I've booked the day off holiday to be supportive and comforting for him
Tonight he went to his social club, said I'm going to sleep because I've been tired all day ( we don't live together but we FaceTime every night and sleep on camera) I said don't call me if it gets to a ridiculous time. I had a text come through at 11:30 saying no I said well where are you? The club closes at 11.. he was outside with his mate he was crying over his girlfriend problems have been going on between them for months. I usually get out to bottom of the list too when it comes to situations like this...I said this is ridiculous think of me he basically after a row said I'm an arsehole and not to go to the funeral tomorrow.
I've message his sister not to pick me up and confirmed his wishes and decided not to go. I've had shitty messages come through now blaming me for all this and I feel worthless.
I've texted back saying I need space I feel like I need reassurance I'm not the shit on his shoe and to think of me more.
Is all that a bad thing or just me being stubborn/selfish and hormonal? Been crying non stop