Hello, I’m really emberresed to write this. When I was 16 I new I had depression however after asking for help I didn’t get it. I had stomach pains which I took co codamol for and for some reason it gave me a comfort and made me feel relaxed. From then till now (I’m 23) I have took these day in day out tri d stopping them and can’t. I don’t get them prescribed my family are prescribed them but don’t take them so I do. Through out the pregnancy I’ve tried to stop and can’t. Many nights I cry myself to sleep because I feel like a bad mother already, like I don’t deserve to be one. I promise myself each week I will stop. I’m now 33 weeks nearly and still taking them. Will this effect the baby? Has anyone else taken them all the way through? I have 6-8 a day 30mg. However I have cut down to the less strong ones I have 4 of the less strong ones a day which is 12mg. Im broken. I’ve already felt like once baby is here to give it to the dad as he will be better of without me. I feel as though everyone would be. Does he really want a mother that is addicted to a painkiller that can’t even stop not even for him? I just feel Asif I cant go on anymore, I have no friends only my mum and dad they don’t know. Please don’t judge me, I’m already here hurting enough. If I go cold turkey the side effects are so bad and I don’t knowif it will harm baby. I need answers. I did open up a little to midwife but she just cut me off :( please has anyone else been here?
Thank you.