Sorry in advance for being morbid...
January this year at 12wks on the day of my 12 wk scan I miscarried and after 4 hrs of contraction pain passed my baby in its sac. After an awful experience with the nhs in April I conceived again. I had an early scan at 9 wks and saw my baby moving and saw the heart beat. Today at 11wks I found out my baby looks to have stopped growing two days later and there was no heartbeat.
I have had hyperemisis with both pregnancies with sickness easing off on both at 9wks. At my 9 wk scan on this one my sickness had eased off but there was still a heartbeat. There is supposed to be a 98% chance of success after you see a heartbeat at 9 wks and although I did see it on my first pregnancy I’m positive the same thing happened. I feel as though I get so sick my body just stops producing the hormone? Has anybody experienced something similar? I am convinced that is what it is but I know that with the nhs they won’t do any tests until after 3. I mentally cannot go through this a 3rd time. Has anybody been able to get tests before 3 miscarriages?
I feel so broken, like I’m not meant to have children. I know people go though recurrent mc but I just don’t think emotionally or physically I can go through a third before they will even test me to see if something is wrong.
I just don’t know how people do this. The world is such a cruel place. My sister I’m law is pregnant now ( expecting shortly after I would have been with my first) and my partners ex who he has a child with is pregnant and due the same time as I would have been now. Everything was supposed to be ok on this one but it’s not. I am broken and angry and now I have to wait it out for what is to come next.
I have to book a drs appointment tomorrow to be referred to epau, after last mc I can’t do it again, I’m going to ask for a dc although I know they will want me to go it alone again.
If anybody had been able to be tested after two please can you let me know how to go about it. I don’t have any private healthcare and I paid for my early scans this time as I have had no bleeding.