With the help of mumsnet mates, CBT and real life support have (started...) to get on top of some serious anxiety and begin to begin to begin to feel positive about my pregnancy. Woke up this morning for first time in about a month having slept ok and not feeling terrified with terrible thoughts about the baby's health being affected by my nerves (reassuring side note for anyone in same boat, psychatrist and psychologist i've seen been mega clear this is all irrational) but now wondering what's "normal". Am normally so cheerful and excited about everything from what i'm going to have for tea to going out to watching a show I really like (yup, mega rock and roll lifestyle this end) and feels unfamiliar to be bit neutral. Don't get me wrong, cautiously numb beats waves of anxiety any day but would love to work towards actual happiness! Midwife at booking in so nice and said was normal to be disbelieving / apprehensive for months but - well - is it?! thank you! xxx