Around 8 weeks pregnant...
I had light brown spotting last week and then on Tuesday night and into a Wednesday I had pinky/red spotting. I spoke to a midwife over the phone on Wednesday morning who booked me in for an early scan. The earliest she could get me was a week away, so the 27th June. She told me if the bleeding got worse to ring again, Wednesday evening I was having light cramps. By light cramps I mean very light, I’ve had worse cramps with periods. But bleeding was heavier, it had gone from spotting to bleeding through my jeans. As it was out of hours, I rang 111. That was fun, I swear they are useless. I spoke to two different people who “assessed” me before I managed to speak to a doctor. Eventually about 2 hours later I spoke to a doctor over the phone, I had to explain everything again as no information had been passed on to her. She was the most insensitive person I had ever spoken to. She told me I had PROBABLY miscarried and that sometimes it’s just not meant to be. As if that would somehow ease my pain.
Quick side note - Husband and I have been trying for over 5 years, had 1 failed IVF attempt, a chemical pregnancy and now this all in the space of the last year.
This doctor told me to see my regular GP on Thursday. So I rang my doctors surgery first thing Thursday morning and would told a doctor would ring me within a couple hours and they may decide to bring me in. The doctor rang me, I explained everything all over again. Because reliving all these conversations is just what I want! He said that is sounded suspiciously like a miscarriage. He then told me to keep the early scan the midwife had booked for me on the 27th June and it will be confirmed then. Apparently I still could not get a earlier scan.
So now it is the horrible waiting game, I need closure and I’m having to go through it all again on Wednesday. I keep swapping between it’s definitely a miscarriage and maybe there’s still hope and it’s killing me. It’s also making it hard for my husband as he is trying to deal with the miscarriage and I am all over the place.
I have attached a picture trombone wednesday night when I had the most bleeding, it seems obvious that this is a miscarriage. I think so just need to hear it from more people to process it and this isn’t really something I feel comfortable showing to my friends and family and asking for their opinions.
Sorry for the graphic picture.