I have had some small scares in the pregnancy so far with complications from hypothyroidism and early bleeding at 8 weeks but all has been well otherwise. In the 20 week scan, they said the placenta was low but would probably move so I didn't worry.
On Friday night (26 weeks + 5) I had a massive bleed. It was painless but terrifying. Husband rushed me into hospital and bleeding slowed down. The first doctor did I test that indicated I was at high risk of preterm labour. Five mins later she returned having read my notes and said that actually the test was known to be inaccurate in cases of placenta previa. Still she sent a very sombre NICU doctor down to speak to me and my husband.
I have been monitored ever since and blood pressure/tempetature/Baby heart rate is fine which is great. I have had no further bleeds just old brown blood which is reducing. I may be allowed how today which is lovely but i have been warned that I am likely to be back multiple times in the future. I am attempting to distract myself with practical stuff- planning a proper hospital bag (didn't have one this time), thinking of bringing forward baby purchases in case of preterm delivery, arranging to self certify off of work this week while I rest (then 2 weeks annual leave following)...
Problem is that I am terrified. The bleed came out of nowhere- what if i go home and the rest makes no difference and I end up back here? What if I deliver my baby far too early (27 weeks tomorrow) and I lose them? I feel myself beginning to freak out and lose rationality. What if my waters don't break spectacularly and simply quietly leak and I don't notice because of the hot weather?
Tbh, the uncertainty is not anything that anyone can fix and I suspect I will need to distract myself with knitting and Netflix to stop myself from losing it completely.
Not sure if there is much advice anyone can give. Just needed to vent.