Having a meltdown

[Kate0706]

I’m 10 weeks pregnant with my first baby. Although I am over the moon and generally excited I am currently having a huge meltdown.
I’m scared, really scared.
I feel like I’m not allowed to be scared and like the few people that do know won’t understand. I assure you I’m happy about this but I’m having a massive freak out. Sat in bed crying and feeling like I shouldn’t be. Am I a really bad person? Should I just be only happy and not this scared?

Totally normal. It can all feel overwhelming at times. On top of it being a huge life change (even if it's something you've wanted for a long time), your hormones are all over the place and your body is doing all sorts of weird stuff.
Be kind to yourself. Have a (disappointingly lukewarm) bath, have a (decaf) tea and try to get some sleep. X

Firstly, congratulations @Kate0706 on your pregnancy.

Your feelings do not make you a bad person! Being pregnant with your first brings about a plethora of feelings, thoughts and emotions ............ throw in pregnancy hormones and your mind goes into overdrive.

In sure all/most the ladies on here will agree with me when i say that everyone on here is here to support eachother through this so post away when you need to share how you think, feel or need support.

Sharing with you my experience, I'm only 7 weeks and have been up and down like a yoyo............. including being scared, anxious, and the icing on the cake so far has been having a meltdown yesterday in boots where i just burst into tears (I was so embarrassed)!

Please don't feel like you are a bad person. You're pregnant with your first, that is a major maybe the biggest thing that will ever happen in your life - you are perfectly entitled to be scared.

If you are really struggling maybe it's worth checking in with your GP or midwife? x

Sounds normal to me. I would break down and doubt my own abilities or think I would be a rubbish mum quite regularly. Your hormones are all over the place.

It's scary, you are allowed to have and be in charge of another human being without any sort of test or qualification. However be assured that things will just click.

When you go into labour sub consciously you will know what to do, how to breathe, how to push. When baby is born you will naturally know how to hold it and feed it. Remember many people have done this and would all have had hurdles to get over you are not alone.

Have faith in yourself. Have you got a friend who has had a baby that you can just message when you are feeling low? I had a best friend who would just be so positive no matter how negative I was, she was my lifeline.

Thank you :) I’ve had a decent sleep and do feel a bit better today.
I’m almost 30 so nearly all my friends have children but everyone that knows just keeps going on about how excited I must be so I feel a bit like I can’t say. My best friend is also pregnant 7 weeks, she’s had miscarriages and has been very desperate for a baby and mine was unplanned so I’m holding off talking to her because I feel guilty feeling like this when I’ve been so blessed to conceive so easily. Does that make sense?
I don’t think I’m feeling so bad that I need to talk to my gp or midwife I’m a nurse myself so feel like I’ve got the ability to recognise if and when I need to speak to someone.
Thank you for your kind replies it had helped just having a forum to vent on xx

I'm glad you've slept and feeling better today. Hopefully you will get even better as time passes and begin to enjoy your pregnancy x

Had a massive freak out myself when I heard someone else's baby crying... Was about 23 weeks. Just sat there by myself crying in public. Was a low point I have to say!

Now I'm 32 weeks and more excited about baby and freaking out less :-)

Be kind to yourself, pregnancy is flipping hard work. Very emotional and tiring. You'll be a great mum :-)