I have no-one in real life to talk to about this.
DP wasn't sure about trying to DC2. Many, many heart to hearts were had where we both explained our positions. Following the last one around Christmas, we commenced unprotected sex. Now I am pregnant. I was really excited - I'd been feeling broody for a while. Unfortunately, when I told DP, he said he thought he'd been clear in our discussions that he didn't want another and didn't want it (but wouldn't force me to get rid of it).
I mean, how could I have got it so wrong? The fact that he agreed to unprotected sex, how was I supposed to know he still meant he didn't want another DC?
Now all excitement is gone and all I can think about are the worries - money will be tighter, space will be tighter, time for DC1 will be tighter, is it fair on DC1, will we break up, etc etc etc. It's still very early. One of us from DP and I seems will always resent the other, and I feel bad bringing a child into this knowing one parent didn't want it and how will I bond knowing this? On the other hand, he says DC1 is the light of his life, so maybe DC2 will become that too? I don't know what to do. I should phone the midwives for my booking appointment but I keep putting it off. I don't know what I want from this really, just need to put it down somewhere.