Really struggling with pregnancy 😩

[GemmaCartwright]

Long pointless post really...
I just need a bit of a rant to be honest, and I'm hoping I'm not alone in feeling like this...
This pregnancy is absolutely kicking my arse, I have a 4.5 year old on the spectrum but the pregnancy with her was a breeze compared to this... I'm 22 weeks, permanently exhausted (I know being a parent already probably has an impact on that) I'm suffering with back and hip pain, the spots on my chest and back are HORRENDOUS, honestly, they're like huge painful blisters!
And on top of that it has turned me into a paranoid, jealous, psycho partner 😩 me and my partner have a very good relationship, he lied a bit at the start but I'm pretty sure he is done with that now he knows what an open person I am and how much I hate lying. I am also a pretty self confident person, never been one to compare myself to others and comfortable in my own skin etc... Anyway, since being pregnant I constantly feel like my partner is hiding something, everytime he picks up his phone I think he's talking to someone else, every night I dream about him cheating on me, I constantly compare myself to his exes, even though I know I don't need to... He's just gone out for a drink with a friend he hasn't seen for ages and normally this wouldn't bother me but I'm sat here seething with him, worried that he's going to do something while he's out... And I'm constantly tearful, I've never been one to cry at anything really, but at the moment EVERYTHING sets me off and I cannot deal with it 😭
I will also add that I am over the bloody moon about being pregnant and cannot wait to meet my little boy, I really don't want to sound ungrateful, but the pregnancy is so difficult and I'm only just half way 😣
Any words of support would be very welcome xx

Aw....don't worry I'm feeling pretty ungrateful too. After 1 year of singledom ....2x IUI and 1 cycle of IVF (£11k later) I'm finally pregnant and expected to be beautiful and glowing and so excited. .....I've just posted my thread about post nasal drip. Its ruining my life and I never want to go through this again. So you are not alone 🤗

Sounds like me!!!!!

I'm early pregnancy but it's hit me hard. I'm bloody paranoid!

Constantly questioning everything.

My last pregnancy I was fine, hormones are odd!

You're not alone... I have found pregnancy flipping hard work, very tiring and extremely hormonal!

You're doing a great job, we'll all get there in the end :-)

God its just so difficult to differentiate between hormones and reality! I don't remember being this much of a psychotic monster last time 🙈
My poor partner, I'm sure he's constantly walking on eggshells in case the inner psycho bitch emerges and flips out on him xx

I'm single but I know no one would put up with me atm anyway 😂

My family don't know what to do with me ....just call me Eeyore for all the moaning.

I've never felt such anger as I did through fertility drugs and I was not myself. I was mortified by my angry overreactions that would never normally happen.

You're not yourself but other people should make allowances for you at this time. Other people don't often understand though.

Try to do something, perhaps on your own, that you enjoy.