Can’t sleep, 12 week scan on Wednesday

[Eminybob]

I’ve had a few diversions in the last couple of weeks stopping me thinking about the scan, but now it’s imminent and I’m so scared and stressed out.

I had a mmc about 5 years ago, before I had my ds and I’m petrified it’s going to happen again. It was found at an early scan at 8 weeks, the baby had stopped growing at 5 weeks.

I also had a “pregnancy of unknown location” about 18 months ago where I had a possitive test but nothing found at a very early scan. But that was really early and then my period came at about 6 weeks.

I didn’t have an early scan with ds, just the first at 12 weeks and he is a perfectly healthy happy almost 4 year old now, so I know that my fear is probably irrational.

I also worry that I’m just not pregnant. Even though I’ve not had a period for 3 months, have had 3 positive tests and have had loads of symptoms. I worry I’ll go for the scan and there will be nothing there at all. Then they will do a test and I will never have been pregnant, it was all in my head. But then I think they must have tested the ursine sample I gave at my booking in appointment? And would have told me if I wasn’t?

I just can’t shake the feeling that something is wrong.

Don’t know what I want from this post, reassurance maybe? But I can’t sleep and am making myself sick with worry.

Fall down a rabbit hole on YouTube instead. I fell down a Ray Quinn one the other night and ended up watching all of the brookside bullying/murder storyline along with some skating/singing/impressions

I know it's useless advice for anxiety but you'll get some sleep.

You need to sleeeeeeeeep big time.
What will be will be but right now you need to snuggle up, time enough to face whatever tomorrow,
I wish you you every good thing but staying awake won’t help..........
Snuggle, be warm and sleeep, it’s brilliant

Hah thanks both. I know I need to sleep. Easier said than done though.
Did I mention that I’m an insomniac and I’ve been advised to suspend my usual meds that help me sleep until at least 2nd trimester? (so soon thank god!)

If it wasn’t this keeping me awake it would be something else. I have terrible anxiety.
Going to put phone down now, leave it downstairs so I’m not tempted to pick it back up, and go back to bed.

I completely sympathise, I had all the same thoughts going through my head before my 12 week scan even though it was my first pregnancy and I had no additional reason to be worried. Especially the 'what if I made up the whole pregnancy thing in the first place' bit. I was so shocked/amazed when she put the scanner on my belly and I could immediately see an actual baby in there

Good luck for tomorrow - I have my anomaly scan on Wednesday morning and am beginning to freak out again myself xxx

I feel the exactly the same. My scans tomorrow too!! First pregnancy for me. Don’t put your head through stress, you can do this. You’ll get such a relief seeing your baby wriggling on the monitor. I had a bout of morning sickness yesterday, which as weird as it sounds, I took as a good sign. The pregnancy hormones are very much there.

Good luck with your scans Tiny and Kimmy.

I know, I keep telling myself the symptoms are a good sign, my morning sickness died down for a few days last week so I had the obligatory panic, but it has come back full force so that should be a relief.

How did it go? My anomaly scan was all fine, such a relief xx

That’s great news. Mines at 11.30. I will report back.

Good luck

Hope everything went well at your scan today and you can get some rest tonight x

All was perfect. Such a relief. Thank you everyone.

Fab. Excellent news! So pleased for you OP

Thank you. I’m so happy, I fully expected to for them to be nothing there!
The sonographer said that’s a very common reaction when she’s doing 12 weeks scans!