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berolina's pregnancy rollercoaster continues

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berolina · 14/05/2007 22:18

At work late this afternoon I had some odd tightenings (possibly BH) and then felt something leaking out of me. Went to check and there was a biggish wet patch and some very odd brownish discharge, nothing like the stuff I've still been having since my last big bleed, which reminded me of a show. (sorry TMI) I did my very best to keep calm but I think I more or less had a panic attack - feeling sick, blood pressure rising, feeling I didn't have enough air to breathe. Got my colleague to call a doctor and, to cut a long story short, ended up in bl**dy hospital again, all the way there absolutely convinced I could feel my waters leaking out of me (I'm 22+3). Fortunately, as it emerged, the waters are still very much intact and everything is just fine, so they let me out and now here I am, exhausted but wakeful. I feel really stupid - but I really did have a physical sensation of waters leaking, and possibly because I was tired and since the last placenta praevia bleed I've been increasingly nervous and jumpy about the pregnancy, I think I went into some kind of shock or panic. I've been trying to hold all the different bits of my life together despite pg and pp and do it all justice, and it has become increasingly exhausting - possibly today was the culmination. The thing aout the job is I've only been in it for a month and they knew I was pg when they took me on. They're being very understanding but it is so hideously awkward for me, and I'm now worried they'll think I'm unstable or whatever as well. Fortunately I'm working at home the next couple of days. I'm so very glad the baby is OK but feel so tired and useless right now.

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Kif · 14/05/2007 22:23

{{{{hugs}}}}

forget the world and think warm baby thoughts.

moondog · 14/05/2007 22:24

Oh dear Bero.
Take it easy for God's sake.
Remember that without babies here is no future for any of us.

Hope you keep it all in perpective.

XXX

Califrau · 14/05/2007 22:26

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SlightlyMadSlipstream · 14/05/2007 22:32

Berolina - take it easy

I had some browny showy type discharge at 23/24+something. Was told it was nothing to worry about just a harmless cervical erosion.

I had some more at 26+5 - was again told it was nothing. I was kept in hospital (as is routine after any type of bleeding) and if I hadn't have been I would probably have delivered 2 3month premature babies at home/on the road after a quick and pretty pain free first labour. It was indeed my show that I had lost.

I am not trying to scare you but I want you to be careful and listen to your body. Don't ignore any warning signs - please. Better to be safe than sorry.

berolina · 14/05/2007 22:34

thank you.

It's not just work, it's ds and dh too - dh needs to be able to get on with his work finally - and we had dear friends last week we hadn't seen for ages, and it's ds's birthday on Fri.

I was so looking forward to coming back here, working in a job where the work didn't spill over into all inordinate hours (and it doesn't, fortunately, and it's much nicer in general than my last one), taking ds out to friends and groups without having to travel 2 hours each way to do it, dh finally getting to press on with his PhD, etc. etc., and since we moved it's been one thing after the other.

These 'so near but yet so far' weeks of pg, in which if something happens it really will be the end, are really getting to me too. I so thought it was over this afternoon.

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berolina · 14/05/2007 22:37

SMS - I'm sorry you had that experience, and glad it all turned out OK:

Fortunately (if that can be a term to use in this context) mine probably was a bit of old blood from the pp, but the way it came out (mixed up with 'normal' discharge) it just looked so odd and different that it freaked me. They measured my cervix and it was fine.

Don't worry, I'm certainly not going anywhere tomorrow, and the day after only to hospital to keep the check-up appointment I'd made before all this. The doctor today thought the placenta may have moved

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SlightlyMadSlipstream · 14/05/2007 22:38

Another week and a half and you will past the recognised point of viability...but remember every day counts.

My DTDs born at 26+6 had a long ride but they are perfect...just keep LO in for as long as you can...

Ellbell · 14/05/2007 22:39

Oh sweetheart... I wish there was something I could do. But in the absence of anything very constructive I am sending huge hugs, 'stay-where-you-bloody-well-are' vibes to your placenta, and general calm and peaceful thoughts in your general direction. (OK, OK... don't laugh... it's true that I wouldn't recognise a calm, peaceful thought if it bit me on the bum, but I am trying !)

It's no wonder you panicked. I would have done exactly the same. And you were absolutely right to get it checked out immediately. No one with more than half a brain cell will think you're unstable or useless. This is really important, and you needed to do exactly waht you did.

Please try to take it easy as much as you possibly can. You don't have to hold it all together, you know. You are allowed to let go and just panic for a bit and take time off or whatever. Nothing bad will happen if you do.

And tell yourself that (assuming your baby will be born at c. 36 weeks) you are now well over halfway there, and coming up to two-thirds of the way there. It has been a hard and stressful slog, but I promise you that the moment you hold your baby in your arms it will all pale into insignificance.

I am sending you lots of love. You know how to get hold of me if you need anything.

SlightlyMadSlipstream · 14/05/2007 22:40

Yes I realise that everyone is different and that you have had other recognised problems etc....I just wanted to make the point that I trusted the Drs when they told me all was well and that I should go home and back to work etc....I wish I had listened to my body etc.

berolina · 14/05/2007 22:43

Thanks Ellbell xxx

SMS - you are right, absolutely. It's so hard to know what's for the best sometimes, isn't it? I think today was largely quite a lot of subconscious fear and worry coming up - which probably should tell me something.

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berolina · 14/05/2007 22:49

Don't worry CF, my feet shall be firmly on the sofa (possibly at the pedals of my new piano now and again), honest my work this week involves phone calls, which is hideous work (not what I usually have to do,k thank goodness) but can be happily done from the sofa.

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Ellbell · 14/05/2007 22:50

Cali is right (she usually is, IME ). Do what she says!

berolina · 14/05/2007 22:50

oh, and dh is going to take ds out with him

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berolina · 14/05/2007 22:52

think I might be able to sleep soon... my system's been so messed up by this afternoon, but now I feel more normal and hence tired.

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berolina · 14/05/2007 23:00

night

Will have to reassess things longer term re. work, I think.

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Ellbell · 14/05/2007 23:13

Goodnight! Sleep well. And reassess as necessary, but don't agonise over it. It won't help.

[Just do as I say, not as I do, OK? ]

berolina · 15/05/2007 09:37

Oh Ellbell, I do love you

I had another look at my notes from today before going to bed last night, and my cervix was 27mm - they said it was a good length, but tbh isn't that actually a bit short? No funnelling, thankfully. So I went to bed a bit upset and it took a while to drop off. Am hoping the rest I'll be getting will reverse the shortening (if it is shortening - I don't know what it was measuring before).

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southeastastra · 15/05/2007 09:40

i had brown discharge from pp alot too berolina. i know it can make you panic like mad.

emkana · 15/05/2007 23:06

Just seen this - can I join Califrau in this and say

RUH DICH BITTE AUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thinking of you.

lulumama · 15/05/2007 23:08

thats it berolina...i am coming out there to look after you !!

well, i am sending big hugs and back rubs and soothing words to you..

please please please take it easy if you need to..

berolina · 17/05/2007 17:16

Went for scheduled pp check-up yesterday. Two lovely lovely doctors said I really needed more rest and less pressure and I should go off to the seaside for a week (sigh - I wish), failing that get signed off. They were so lovely. One of them said 'I'm getting breathless just watching you talk' and it really brought home to me how wound up I am. Have slept loads tonight/today, not entirely coincidentally. (Then had a phone chat to work in the afternoon and I am going to work entirely from home until at least next Friday (next checkup) and take even that quite easy).

And they had another look at Monday's scan report and said yes, it appears the placenta could have moved - but in a favourable direction As far as I understood them, it now looks like I have sort of 2 placentas (placentae?), one anterior and one posterior, but nothing over the os - I presume joined in another way. This will be confirmed or otherwise a week on Fri.

emkana missed your birthday, didn't I? sorry and alles Gute nachträglich!

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berolina · 17/05/2007 17:16

oh lulu, please come! please do!

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WelshBoris · 17/05/2007 17:17

PLEASE PLEASE REST Berolina

Thinking of you x

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