Anyone else really struggling emotionally?

[BumbleNova]

I feel like I'm in a really dark place at the moment. I'm 10w + 4 and had a scan on Monday, everything looks good.

We have started telling our families/ friends and I just want to run away and hide? I'm finding other people's enthusiasm and joy just so hard. I lost my mum to cancer at the end of January so I'm sure a lot of it is grief. I'm also scared about how much things will change too. I can't stop crying.

Is it my hormones? I just want an off button at the moment.

You have a very valid reason to be down, and unfortunately pregnancy magnifies that x9000. I have no advice but it’s completely normal and don’t worry, just be kind to yourself

So sorry for your loss OP.
Early pregnancy hormones combined with the grief of loosing your Mum would be a difficult combination for anyone to cope with. It's completely understandable that being happy and celebrating good news is something that you would struggle with at the moment.
Don't suffer alone, talk to your GP and Midwife; you may need some extra support and help and there is no shame in that at all.

To be honest... i think its more a grief issue as its a time you would want to share with your mum more than anyone else

Yes - I think that's it. Her absence is just so overwhelming at the moment. I am having counseling and I feel like I've been doing pretty well but I feel like ive reached my limit. I doesn't help I feel physically crap too. I just want to stay under the duvet.