Im 22 years old and have a gorgeous baby girl. i found out a few weeks ago im pregnant with my second baby, im really excited to be having another baby although i do get really down about it. What doesnt help is that my partner doesnt seem that bothered about it. He was the same when we found out about our 1st although he worships the ground she walks on now shes here. Ive tried to have serious conversations about how i feel but he just doesnt take me seriously, which brings my mood down more. i dont know if its my emotions getting to me with being pregnant or whatever but i feel like im really struggling.
Im worried about meeting with midwives again, when i met them with my 1st i had only recently moved into a new house and had tried my best to get the house ready for my litle girl before she arrived although i didnt have money falling out my pockets to have had everything brand spanking new. All they did was bring me down about not having this and that and always had something bad to say and never really gave me any positivity, i changed midwives 3 times because i didnt feel like i was getting anywhere with any of them.
i still need to book my first appointment with the midwives but im worried about what bad things there going to say this time and honestly rather they dont come to my house to slag me off again, can i request to only see them at the community centres or do they legally have to come out? I just dont want bad vibes brought into my house when i feel like i do at the moment. i have nothing to hide, my house is clean and tidy and will let them come in but i just dont trust them after how i was treated the first time.
Im also worried my little girl is going to think im pushing her away when the new babys here and i really dont want that.. we have a real strong bond with eachother already and i dont want to lose that. Im constantly tired but i try to brave through it for her with little help from my partner.
Please if anyone has any advice it will ve very much appreciated.