I'm pregnant again. Number 5 in 5 years. I have an extremely low libido, and have gone months without intercourse. Literally every time I have had intercourse using a bc method besides condoms, I have gotten pregnant. The first on the pill. The second I had taken the morning after pill after intercourse. The third on the pill (thought maybe I messed up taking the first time. Guess not). The fourth morning after pill. The fifth -- condom broke, but it was day 27 of my typically 30 day cycle. I was so certain that I was in the clear this time... I didn't even consider the possibility of being pregnant until day 37 without my period (I track everything on the Clue app). I was also scheduled for a copper IUD.
I have autoimmune progesterone disorder and recently learned that hormonal bc is not safe for me. It is also possible that I metabolize hormones differently. I'm actually supposed to start hormone replacement therapy, so getting pregnant when I have low progesterone is blowing my mind.
My maternal grandmother had 11 unplanned pregnancies by a slew of different men before she was killed mere months after her last. She likely would have had more. My mother had 5 unplanned, some while on bc, before she had her tubes tied. I have an aunt with 7 kidsonly 2 planned. Another aunt with 9 kidsthe last two she gave up. My mother is very superstitious about our family fertility--but this just doesn't make sense to me. I feel like a fool not being able to get a handle on this.
Also, pregnancy is so rough on me. Doc says I'm "hypersensitive" to the hormones. Hyperthyroidism, hyperemesis, preeclampsia (I once started at 135 lbs, dropped to 110 with hyperemesis, and went up to 190 due to preeclampsia). The first pregnancy triggered fibromyalgia and hypothyroidism.
Anyone been through a similar struggle? I'm pissed at myself, and since I struggle with depression and suicidal ideation--#5 is really messing with my head.