Hi I am new to this forum I was hoping for a more recent story of anyone else’s experiences with this as I am struggling to comes to terms with what’s happened.
So I am 30 yo, a mother to 3 beautiful healthy children. My family is complete. The major reason is that I do not get much support from my partner and know there me no way I could cope mentally as well as physically having another baby added to the mix.
I found out a few weeks ago that I am pregnant with my fourth child, it was a complete shock as I was taking contraception. It worked out I was about 6 weeks when I found out, I knew as soon as my period was late, as well as the symptoms I was already experiencing mainly being the nausea and hot flushes that I was pregnant.
I knew straight away that it was not an option to have another baby. Please don’t judge I am thinking what’s best for all my family and how much it would put an impact on everything. My partner doesn’t know anything as he will not agree with my decision! The only on who knows is my mother.
After not much thought I contacted BPAS clinic to see what my options were and they talked me through everything and booked me in for a consultation and scan the following week. When I went I found them to be very nice, non judgemental & understanding. I had my scan and nurse told me I was 7 weeks 1 day and after all of the options I decided I wanted to have a medical termination. (All in one day) I was advised that there was more of a chance of it failing but still chances were slim. After waiting around for 2 hours the doctor signed it all off and I was called into the nurse once again. I was then given the first tablet orally to take which stopped any more hormones progressing and then she inserted 4 of the tablets to stop pregnancy. I was then told to go home along with the antibiotics and painkillers and advice it would take 3-5 hours before any movement.
I would say it took four hours as from the time I left to the time I picked the children up from school was about that time
I started to spot and then as the evening went on the bleeding got heavier. I was in some discomfort and so I took my own painkiller Naproxin which seemed to help a lot. I was back and fourth to the toilet and passes a few clots but didn’t seem how other women had described (as intense) but thought it may be because I only had a baby 1.5 year ago I could cope better. I continued to bleed lightly for about 2 weeks. All the time still feeling the nausea, sore boobs and tiredness it was time to take the pregnant test provided by BPAS, it came back Positive! I knew it I had a feeling I was still pregnant but still knew it could be my hormones causing the result so I waited another week. I took a clear blue test and within 2 seconds a clear blue cross appeared. I then contacted BPAS and explained what had happened and they advised it could be 1 of 3 things 1. Hormones still in my system 2. Tissue still remains 3. Continuing pregnancy. The lady booked me in for a scan but because of childcare for my little one had to wait til the following Friday for another scan to see what was happening.
I went for the scan a week later (today) the nurse I saw was lovely and tried to reassure me that many women come back because of a positive pregnancy test because of their hormones still being high. I then had the scan to which she told me she was so sorry but it was indeed and continuing pregnancy. I am now 9 weeks 3 days. I just knew it my heart sank. What do I do?? So many thought going round in my head.. do I take this as a sign?! Is it meant to be?? Am I doing the right thing?? I can’t stand any more hiding it from people! I felt so alone and confused.
The nurse comforted me and as nice as she could have put advised me there was only one real option, which was surgical termination as it was continued pregnancy. She has booked this in for 1.5 weeks making me just under 11 weeks. After
my mum collected me and I sobbed. She comforted me and we talked. I went back to my mums with my daughter and had a cup of tea and I’m still finding it hard to come to terms with. I am dreading having to go back to the clinic I just wish this wasn’t happening to me. :( as I was sitting down I sneezed and felt a gush of wet, I went toilet and saw bright red blood?? That happens about 2 pm today and I feel crampy now but no more blood?? Do you think I am losing the baby?? Please help me!!