So I have a 3yo DD who has Autism and associates learning difficulties including being non-verbal. Things are hard daily as she has behavioural issues, we go from appointment to appointment, she is progressing slowly in most areas but communication and social skills are the furthest behind (around 12-18 months) and she is about 1 year behind in everything else.
My husband and I talked about having another, I think I got lost in the romance of things going perfectly and DD either learning from her new sibling or her teaching them things, but now I find myself a few weeks pregnant and filled with absolute despair.
The reality of our current situation has hit home more as we are starting to look at schools for DD (no idea what’s best for her re mainstream or special school), and I can only see very few positives in a new baby and so so many negatives.
I feel awful to have got to a stage where another life has already been created and I don’t know that I want it. I know that people spend their days desperately hoping for a little one, and here am I with one already and another that I don’t know how I feel about. I feel guilty and awful. My parents are incredible and help us out a lot, but they should be enjoying their retirement and not constantly having to help me pick up the pieces.
Has anyone else been in this situation?