Pregnancy in unknown location, so upset

[Katiekiara]

I’m 20 years old, had 3 miscarriages in the past 6 months and found myself pregnant again this month. I was overjoyed and for some stupid reason I remember thinking “I have a good feeling about this one” I was looking at homes for me and my boyfriend to move into, i feel embarrassed to say it but I got so excited, I should’ve known better. I went for bloods and scans early as I’m considered to be high risk. My bloods were highest they’ve been throughout any pregnancy, went for scan, couldn’t see anything but they told me could just be too early. Went back for repeat bloods, levels barely rising, by 10 maximum. Had scans, and they told me I have pregnancy in unknown location, and are considering the injection (low form of chemotherapy) to end the pregnancy as they don’t know where it is. Honestly I’ve felt so depressed. I’m just carrying something inside me that I know is coming out some time soon whether that be natural or through injection. I haven’t been to work in a week. I’ve been arguing with my boyfriend as he doesn’t show his emotions, I don’t think it really affected him to be honest, he doesn’t grieve as he hasnt seen it, hasnt felt it. I honestly feel so alone, I have a appointment with specialists in April. I have never felt this down, I cry myself to sleep every night since I found out. I just feel so alone :( no one seems to know how I feel. I find speaking to my friends no help, they have no idea what to say

I don’t know what to say, but I’m so sorry you are going through such a difficult and traumatic experience.

Gosh you poor thing :-( so so sorry for you. I'm not surprised you feel down and very hard in of itself let lone falling out with bf at the same time.

Sands are an excellent support group, you need lots of support and care at this time. You're never alone even if you feel that way :-)

All these injections and stuff are hard in of themselves, bf should be treating you like a queen with all you're going through

Xx

@modip Thankyou for your support x @aw12345 I mean he tries his best but for example I had one of my blood tests the other day and he didn’t want to get out of bed so he didn’t come. All I wanted was his presence there I was driving anyway I literally just wanted him to sit with me. At the moment our argument is about some girl at his work that I don’t like texting him. I know she’s only his friend but I just went off on one, maybe I’m feeling a bit insecure I don’t know, but now he’s calling me crazy and not speaking to me

I'm so sorry to hear he's not supportive :-( it is awfully sad to lose another baby and I feel so sorry for you. Maybe the only remotely good thing that could possibly come out of this terrible situation is that you get the chance to move on from this person who seems to be too selfish to look after you properly, find someone caring, someone who listens and supports you then retry for a baby. You deserve better and you're still young :-) no rush to settle with this guy!