Hi I'm hoping there's someone out there who's going to understand my situation and maybe give me some advice.
I've been with my boyfriend for less than 6 months, in this time I left my home and got a house with him and have fallen pregnant. This was not a planned pregnancy and I was actually on the pill... I also took an ellaone pill which had no affect.
I told my boyfriend straight away and he was over joyed with the thought of us having a baby. I felt really scared as this is something I have never ever wanted! He made me feel safe and supported to which I thought what right do I have to abort a child? As time has gone on I have realised it was all just the "honeymoon phase and I don't actually have any feelings for him. When he touches me, eats, moves or anything I just feel so repulsed... that sounds absolutely awful and I hate myself every second for feeling this way! He is an amazing guy and could not be faulted for all the things he has done! I really really don't want to go ahead with this pregnancy and I defiantly don't want to be with him but I hate the fact of aborting a baby and don't think I would forgive myself? He was so excited he told all of his family, so not only would he hate me, they would too! I'm 7 weeks and I just wish I could go back in time. I really do not love him but he's convinced he loves me... I'm worried the longer I leave this the more I will hurt him (which I really don't want to do) - he is completely against abortions and I'm unsure how he would react. I have confided in my mum who says she will support me no matter what and I should do what I thinks best... but that decision is hard when I don't even know myself, yet I'm racing against the clock as I'm already at 7 weeks. Please can anyone give me some advice on what I should do?