Hello... just wanted to let off steam! Basically I already have 5 children 😣😍 my eldest is 22 and just started work after graduating from uni. My daughter is 20 and my teens are 17 and 14. I fell unexpectedly at 40 with my 4 year old after the gp took out my coil which I'd had in for 10 years!!! It was so painful that I didn't have it replaced and anyway gp said due to it being in so long and my age I would not fall pregnant 🙄... a month later I went back to tell her I was pregnant 😂. I was in shock and so were the kids but I'm so glad it happened as he's brought so much joy to our lives.
Well in February last year I had to take on care of my granddaughter as my daughter wasn't managing ( lo has a heart condition amongst other things bless her) due to my daughter having her own issues to deal with she couldn't cope and after a lot of case conferences social services recommended I take lo on a special guardianship to prevent her being taken into care 😑. So I went through tons of assessments and finally the court ruled I can have the ago after glowing reports from the health professionals. Lo had a heart operation in March and is thriving and happy. Well now after one slightly tipsy Halloween party I have discovered baby number 6!!!! is on the way 😣😫🙈.
When I told my OH he just shrugged and said " oh well don't suppose it's going to make much difference now!" I thought that myself. But I am going to be 45 when baby arrives in July. I kind of feel embarrassed about it tbh. I'm scared to tell the kids too 🙊... I feel healthy and I'm looking after my 4 year old and 17 month granddaughter plus I am a childminder 🤣.... so kids are always around me.
I just wondered if anyone has any similar experience.... I feel like I might be judged on a) my age and b) how many children I have! Although 2 have left home too!
My attitude is to just get on with it. I mean there was no question of me not going through with it. But on my dates I am 16 weeks as I know when conception was but midwife is going on lmp because I had a small bleed after. So I'm still awaiting a dating scan which is due for the 18th when I'm going to be 18 week's! So I'm also worried and nervous that lo is Ok!
Okay I'll stop lol!! Thanks for reading and any advice or reassurance would be gratefully received 😘
T x