Really scared of a mmc- I'm 15+5

[BlueeSpottyTiger]

Hello,
Abit of background which prob explains my anxiety. I had a mc at 5 weeks and then a mmc at 12+5 in the summer. Fell pregnant the 1st cycle after the last mc and I'm now 15+5. I've had 3 scans at 6, 10+2 and 11+4 weeks. All have shown a healthy baby.
I have had terrible sickness which has started to die down in the last week or so.
My boobs still hurt but mainly my left
I have 1 dd already and suffered with HG with her until 8 months.
I have felt the baby move about a handful of times from quite early on.. although some have been questionable. I do have a bump but it Doesn't feel hard like my uterus at the bottom which still feels like it is down in my pelvis quite low.
A week ago today i had an intense pain in my stomach and lower back that lasted for 10mins straight. I couldn't move, I was blacking out and was on the verge of fainting it was so bad.
I went to the doctors the next day and she wasn't concerned because i wasn't in pain and it was so short lived. She checked my bp and Urine -all was clear (sent it off to the lab aswell just in case)

I have a scan booked for Saturday morning to find out the gender but i am so scared they will say that the baby has died again, because as weird as this sounds i had the exact same pain around the time the baby actually died in my mmc.

I don't know why I'm posting to be honest but I'm just so anxious.

Sorry op I can understand why you are anxious. Could you go to the gp and get them to use the doppler to hear the heartbeat? Also sometimes morning sickness goes naturally around this time so that might not be a symptom of anything bad.

Sorry you’re going through this OP. I’ve had two missed miscarriages and the fear is horrendous. You can’t trust yourself and the magic is gone.

Can you ask for a Doppler?

Oh sweetie I understand your anxiety. I suffer myself, I have suffered badly this time round with anxiety myself. I have paid for 3 private scans to ease my mind. I have had fears baby has died, that I've dreamt it all, that baby has stopped growing and so many. As for the pains can you ring your midwife not your GP? I know they don't like to use dipper before 16weeks but I'm your happy try to persuade her that you accept it might be hard to find but you want to check. Or call your EPU and explain your pain and anxiety. They might see you to reassure you. I wish I could help more but know you not alone. I understand your pain. Keep positive if possible.

Morning sickness passes sometimes. With my boys I was sick right upto the 12 week mark then it disappeared over night. With my daughters I am sick every single day. With my first daughter I was vomiting the day I had my c section, it can vary so massively between two pregnancies. Remember to breathe and I'm here if you want to chat

Thanks girls! 💖
I have my scan at 10.30 am 16 weeks exactly. so hoping all is well, don't know how I'll cope if not.
I'll keep you updated. I have considered a doppler but was advised against them.
And i think i would have a melt down if i couldn't find it one time. Xx

Thinking of you 🌺 symptoms really change at this time, I'm sure it'll be ok. Deep breaths, Ive had a mmc and this pregnancy has just been anxiety day in day out. Keeping everything crossed. X

everything is okay! A healthy little boy :)
I'm measuring 16 weeks exactly which is what i should be. Great hb.. I'll have a dd and ds now! Yay.
God knows what caused that pain..

Sorry for your loss hullabaloo, how far are you now? Xx

Lovely to hear this :)

Wonderful news

That's fantastic news! 😁👍 I'm 19 weeks now 😁 counting down the days until 20 w scan...xx