Feeling of dread...any advice!

[Papillion86]

So a week ago I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes, not great but trying hard to monitor etc when I found out I was really resentful of the baby and almost wished I hadn't got pregnant, which immediately set me off in tears as I didn't really mean it 😭 anyway fast forward a week and I have his horrible feeling that I'll never meet my baby, that there's no point in doing the nursery because he won't make it, there are no signs anything is wrong but I can't shake this fear and black cloud. It wasn't helped when the diabetes consultant told me about increased risks of Stillbirth etc which has made me even more scared. I know no one can tell me it'll be ok but how can i stop the constant worry? I'm 28 weeks and not sure i can take another 10 weeks of this!!!

The increased risk of stillbirth is when sugar levels aren’t controlled. I know it doesn’t feel like it, but it is a good thing this has been identified. I have three good Friends who had this in pregnancy. One managed with diet other 2 required insulin. All had healthy babies. Have you been referred to a diabetes midwife? They will be able to give you a lot of reassurance.

Yes, seen the diabetic midwife and consultant (who made me worry more). Trying to get my sugars under control which at the moment their not and will only be done by insulin. Just worried that every day that goes by I'm doing harm by not bringing them down even though there is nothing more I can do than eat what I'm eating and keep increasing insulin until better. It's not just this I just can't imagine my baby ever being here and now all I want is him here. Sorry for the rant/sob story