I've always suffered pretty badly with worrying and anxiety, probably even go as far as to say it started when I was a child.
It wasn't made any easier when my first serious relationship turned into an absolute shit storm and my partner was convicted of domestic assaults against my when I was seven months pregnant (I left him when I was ten weeks pregnant as I couldn't risk him hurting my child, hitting me was one thing but it sickened me he might hurt our baby). This was two and a half years ago in may 2015, since then I had my son and he has had no contact with him, he was in a new relationship and has since been sent to prison for domestic assault again and threats to kill. I have a partner and we have been together for two years, I'm twenty weeks pregnant with our first child together and things couldn't be more perfect, he's a wonderful dad to my son and supports me knowing all of my previous baggage, however since finding out my sons biological sperm donor is due for release in nine months I've become an anxious wreck, I can't sleep or even relax if my partner isn't here with me and I panic to the point of being physically sick if he doesn't message me back even though I know he is driving, my parter works so hard and does long hours, he is a self employed electrician and it sounds ridiculous but I feel constantly on edge if he isn't here!
Being pregnant and having a two year old I don't want to take any medication for it because I've found any medication I've had previously has turned me into a zombie and I can't look after my son properly. I just don't know what to do. It's spoiling what is the most perfect moments of my life with the most perfect person I know. Help please