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[CrimsonKitten]

Hi all.
I've posted a lot on here and I've always got a good response. Now I'm in need again...

I'm 14 weeks pregnant, just had my first scan, about to tell everybody in a cute way and super excited... but I'm also dealing with a lot of stress.

I was diagnosed with depression in June and managed to battle it quickly after suffering silently for 5 years. I now think it's starting to creep back. My midwife knows and it's in my notes to keep tabs on my mental health throughout the pregnancy and post.

I moved in with my boyfriend in September and started a new job in October after working in one I had loathed for 4 years. I thought this would be a fun new start, until I realised that apprentices are treated like dirt. I've been there for less than 2 months and I hate it more than I hated my last job.
But I can't leave, the apprenticeship is paid for and will cost me to quit but I don't feel I can't go through with the entire 18 months especially when having a baby half way through (a baby that I will have to take to college with me as I cannot go over the 18 month limit). I've tried out the job, it's not for me.

But how do I leave when everyone around me is pressuring me to stay? And who will then hire a pregnant woman? I get half of national minimum wage as an apprentice and can't save shit, so in my head a temporary job until May would be better.

It's stressing me out but no one is helping.

If you quit, will you get the same opportunity again?
How easy is it for you to find another job right now if you quit?
The money you are getting is crap right now but when you finish - will that not get you into a better job and increase your earning potential?

In your place, I won’t quit. I will focus on the end result that it will get me a better job so I will be able to provide better for my child. It’s only 18 months. But you decide what’s best for you. Good luck

This is the struggle I'm having. I thought I'd enjoy the specific industry but I don't. Will the qualification even help if I don't want to work in the industry? People have suggested a transfer to change the company, but it's not just the company, it's the the actual job itself. I jumped into the opportunity because it was offered and not because it was something I wanted to do. When I originally told people, they laughed at me. Pay wise, the completion of the qualification will give me no more than national minimum wage, just the ability to work in that one specific industry.