Pregnant after mmc

[Alwaysatyke]

Not quite sure what I'm after here - maybe experiences from anyone who's been through similar:

I had a mmc a few months ago - thought I was 12 weeks but baby measured 9.5 and there was no hb (I posted about this at the time and got some wonderful support). Naturally I was devastated and afterwards I struggled with grief a lot more than I expected to.

Found out last week I'm pregnant again (hurrah!). About 4-5 weeks. I totally expected to be nervous and to find it harder to relax but I'm conscious that I'm already low-grade fretting about every little stomach ache and there's a long way to go until I'll be able to feel settled.

How do you get through this time? I'm trying to put it to the back of my mind and just get past each week but keeping on top of the anxiety is so tough and i don't want to become a total wreck

So sorry to hear that. Thinking of you. Be kind to yourself.

Oh sweetheart I'm so sorry it's such a hard time and I hope you have someone with you.

Thanks everyone. Back home today and feeling ok. I'll summarise what happened in case anyone is here because they're going through the same thing and are looking for others' experiences (reading this from others MNers helped me) but I appreciate not everyone might want to read on if it's hurtful:

After posting here on Thursday my bleeding increased massively - for about 3-4hrs it was really heavy with lots of large clots and abdo pains similar to early contractions. Then it eased off and stopped completely, not really anything more overnight.

Went to EPU Fri morning and they scanned me again based on all the bleeding I case it had happened naturally. Unfortunately it hadn't so I stayed for ERPC as planned.

It's completely understandable but nonetheless shitty as you're on the acute list so have no idea how long it'll take. I arrived at the unit at 7.30 and didn't get to theatre until about 3.30, spent a lot of the day crying mostly due to uncertainty with what was happening plus chronic headache from fasting. It probably did help me to have a bit of an emotional purge though.

All was fine after that, surgery went well although had to be US guided as they'd seen on scan I have heart shaped womb and baby was in an awkward position. I've never had this identified before which hopefully means it's not a serious case and as I've had a previous uncomplicated birth it shouldn't have a serious impact on conception but it's another factor to bear in mind.

I'm glad it's all over now so I can start to move on. I'm feeling less tired than I expected and pretty much ok (except for sore hand where cannula went in - i have wonky veins).

Next step is to decide whether we want to give this another go - but that's a conversation for another day when DH and i have both had a bit of time to grieve and take stock of everything.

Honestly, thank you to everyone who's supported me here, it truly has helped me to feel less alone. I've told very few people IRL so my little MN support network has been fab