I can't control my anxiety

[magpiemay]

I had a chemical pregnancy a few months ago which I found devastating to deal with and am now 5 weeks pregnant.

At first I felt confident and hopeful that this time everything would be ok. I had very tender boobs and just felt 'pregnant' from 3.5 weeks

Yesterday I called the doctors and I told my parents and sister. I also said that I would be booking an early private scan for reassurance. I've been met with all of them telling me not to get carried away and that it's too early to think like this so I need to just be more patient.

My BFP was 10 days ago. I have taken a test every few days since and the lines have gotten stronger and stronger. I feel like if anything goes wrong I am going to be devastated regardless of whether I feel positive and hopeful or not. I am trying to be cautious but once you think you are pregnant there is no way to avoid the pain if you mc

Problem is after all of yesterday's negativity I feel like my symptoms have lessened- my boobs feel less tender and I just feel all out of sorts, I dreamt that I had a miscarriage and can't shake the feeling now.

I've had no spotting or bleeding and only yesterday took a strong positive test but I cannot get a hold on this anxiety.

I feel like I could do with some support but I just can't pull back that hopeful positive outlook now

Does anyone else feel like this?
Should I be worried my boobs feel less tender?

I feel like I'm losing my mind

I'm sure there will be other posters coming along with good advice but I couldn't read and run! Please stay positive, don't worry about your boobs not feeling so tender, pregnancy is weird and there isn't one thing which is normal for everyone. My DSis is now 5 months pregnant after several mc's and an ectopic pregnancy so never lose hope.

I agree that you do need to just calm down and take things slowly. Atm a scan will show nothing as you're so early on so forget that for now. Stop with the pregnancy tests, you're pregnant don't waste your money. You're stressing over something that doesn't need stressing about.
Start taking your vitamins and drinking lots and eating healthily and focus on that for now! Symptoms come and go and really don't mean an awful lot. Don't turn this into a reason to worry when it should be a happy time.
Congratulations

Thank you both, it's just hard to control anxiety once it takes over!

When I mentioned a scan I had meant in a couple of weeks at about 7 weeks... I just thought it might help to put my mind at rest!

Your dates could still be off, 7 weeks won't always be a good/reassuring scan. Believe me I get it but I think you should just wait until your 12week (dating scan)

I totally understand where you are coming from OP, I'm currently 21 weeks after a MC and a chemical so you could imagine the anxiety I was feeling when I got my BFP. However if I could go back to those first few weeks I would have chilled out a bit. If it was a successful pregnancy or a MC then there's nothing you can do unfortunately. Try and enjoy your first few weeks. Get out for a walk or do think to take your mind of things.