I found out I was pregnant a few weeks ago after pill failure. I've been in a relationship with the father for over a year and a half but he had recently moved away - we were still in touch and planning to see each other and he said he loved and missed me. When I told him I was pregnant he was initially really loving and supportive albeit we acknowledged that we wouldn't be escalating our relationship just because of a baby and I'd be responsible for raising it but now he's saying he wants nothing to do with me at all unless I abort - he won't even want to know when it's born or if I'm ok and doesn't want anything to do with the baby. I can support myself financially and I told him I wouldn't ask for money so it's not that. I think he's the most decent man I've ever met but this took me off guard. He really took this view after taking to his girlfriend. Before he had been understanding albeit shocked and scared which is natural and he was helping me through. He kept going from showing me love to not wanting to even look at me like I'd done something awful to him. I understand it's tough on the dad that they don't have the ultimate say in whether to have an unplanned baby. His life is pretty tough right now too. I don't want to make things worse for him. But I don't know if I can live with killing this child. I feel love for it. He says it's just a bunch of cells and this should be an easy decision but it doesn't feel that way and I've been reading about the risks of abortion... I just don't know if I can do it. I feel so sick and alone. I really love the dad and I don't want to lose his support in my life. I don't know if I could cope with raising a child alone emotionally even though I have the money and it might block me from ever having the planned family I always wanted and living the life I want but all that sounds selfish and I love this baby too and could give me and it a good life. I feel more scared than I ever have. The thought of an abortion just fills me with dread. He's breaking my heart. I need him here because I can't tell anyone else and I feel close to breaking down but he says he doesn't know when he can come. He's telling me to be an adult and make the right choice. But it doesn't seem like there is one.