Hi all,
Didn't think I would write about this online, but would like to see if others have experienced similar or have any advice.
I fell pregnant in June 2017, after trying for about 8 months. I had an early miscarriage at 5 weeks prior to this pregnancy.
Everything seemed to be going well - we'd have an 8 week scan (privately) and then our 12 week scan with the NHS. All appeared well - baby was growing nicely, no genetic concerns or worries relating to the pregnancy.
Upon reaching 15 weeks, during a long car journey home with my husband, my waters went. I coughed and felt something come out of me, and so we stopped at the nearest services (which we were very close to on the motorway). While my husband parked the car, I ran to the toilet. As I ran, I could feel my waters gushing out. I quickly checked in the toilet and saw that it was my waters, but no blood was there at this point. I was in a total panic - no idea what to do. I ended up ringing for an ambulance, who took me to the nearest hospital. At this point I had started to lose a lot of blood.
I was in hospital for the following 6 days, initially on the Gynae ward and then onto the maternity ward. The Doctors explained that they were not sure why my waters went, but possibly due to infection. I was given two choices early on; to continue with the pregnancy and see if my waters would replenish, or to end the pregnancy. We obviously chose to continue with the pregnancy. Little baby still had a strong heart beat, but had very little fluid around them.
During my third day in hospital I was strongly advised to terminate the pregnancy as I had developed an infection and I was not well. This was the worst news - my husband and I were not happy with this decision, but put bluntly by the doctors, the baby had zero chance of survival and my life was at risk.
The day after I had (very reluctantly) agreed to be induced, I was moved onto the maternity ward to have a pill on the Wednesday and was told that I would be induced on the Friday via pessary.
I had contractions naturally on the Thursday night, but nothing came of it. I was moved down to a delivery suite on the Friday morning and given the pessary at midday. Thankfully the labour was fairly quick, and I gave birth to our baby just before 3pm. I didn't look. I couldn't look. It would make everything extremely real and extremely painful for me to see our little baby in a bed pan. We requested photos be taken of our little one, to look at when we are ready.
My husband and I have opted to have a post mortem to determine if there was an issue with the baby. The doctors offered no explanation other than an 'infection'. They are not even sure what infection it was.
Prior to my waters going, I did sense that something was not right. When I sat down I could feel 'something' in me, which I now know were my waters possibly hanging low. Has anyone else experience this?
It's now been 2.5 weeks since the worst week of my life. I'm taking each day at a time. I cry most days. I miss being pregnant. Both my husband and I have work colleagues who were expecting within weeks of our baby's due date - I can't bring myself to think about returning yet.
Has anyone else had a similar experience? I'm wanting to try for another baby as soon as possible, but all Doctors have said to wait until the post mortem results are back, which could take 10 weeks. I don't want to wait that long!
Any advice/shared experiences would be so welcome!