I've recently discovered I'm five weeks pregnant. My situation is really complicated. On a handful of occasions I've slept with someone who at the time I believed I had a rare and unique connection with. He isn't single but did tell me he didn't regret what happened between us and also felt something very connect wit me. He has a lot of stess in his life as his mother has cancer. Her cancer is breast cancer and very much treatable. There is no reason to think it will ever become terminal but naturally he is very upset and stressed. My mother passed away from cancer five years ago and I think how I could relate to him and support him bought me close to him. We also work for the same company and I am more senior. We would both destroy our careers if this came out. I'm 30 years old and single. I've not got any children at the moment and since the death of my mum have thrown myself into my career. I have a sister and god parents and a strong group of friends but no one who would be practically able to help me on a day to day basis. He is insistent that I abort the baby as he doesn't feel it is right for s child to come into the world like this. His father left his mother when she was in the early stages of pregnancy and he grew up without a dad. This has hurt him throughout his life and he doesn't want that for a child. He feels if he tells his girlfriend she will leave him and report us at work. He can't tell his mother and believes she will be deeply ashamed of him. I've tried to tell him if he wishes for me to do so I will never tell anyone the child is his and we can live seperare lives but he doesn't want that either. I really care for this man and I want to help him through a stressful time in his life. I have an appointment booked for an abortion but I don't think I can go ahead with it and I need some realistic guidance. I've had dreams about my baby, I've felt sick and been sick so much it's impossible to avoid the reality of being pregnant. I keep thinking about how my baby will look, if it will look like my mum. I never ever wanted children and my life is so far removed from it being practically viable. I live two hours away from work and stay in the city I work in in the week. I am only financially secure because I work so hard but I own my own house so I understand I wouldn't get much in the way of help. When my mum died I was diagnosed with PTSD and I don't think I can cope with either an abortion or the risk that some women get post natal depression. I don't want to hurt this man or ruin my life. I don't know what to do but I do feel so protective of my baby and the thought of killing it is making me feel so guilty and so wrong. I've looked into adoption but I can't stand the thought of someone else doing it. I would need to know my child is safe and loved. I am not anti abortion and when I was younger I did have one but I feel so different this time. I'm scared I'll have the abortion and regret it for the rest of my life. I'm also terrified of being alone with a baby without a partner or my mum. I'm going to break his heart if I go ahead with this and I think he will run away. I feel I want to be brave but I'm honestly not sure what the right decision is. Life isn't a fairy tale and he might be right that doing this will be wrong for the baby. Has anyone had a situation like this ?