I don't know what's wrong with me, I am ttc and really want a baby but I'm very scared (I would say phobic) of pregnancy and the whole idea of having a baby inside me. I already have a dd and I felt this way with her also, somehow I overcame the fear but the first 12 weeks were full of panic attacks and freak outs. I also went on to have a traumatic birth. I know I want a second and my 2 yo dd is amazing but I'm just so so scared. Currently trying and not in a position to test yet but think I might be pregnant. Already getting really anxious and worked up about it :-( I know it sounds silly but I feel "trapped" that makes no sense, I love my DH and I love our life but really not handling the thought of a baby inside me!!!! Argh! Am I a complete loon or has anyone else felt this way?!