So a few of years ago when I was very young I had a miscarriage followed by an abortion a few months later. Was both very traumatic and can still remember the absolute unbearable pain and heartbreak during both clear as day lost lots of blood during both and also passed out during the vacuum termination. Pretty sure I suffer from depression and anxiety following both of these however manageable and just ignored these. My problem actually is I'm so petrified of a vaginal birth after both of these traumatic events and I just know I will not be able to cope I am 29 weeks and not mentioned the abortion to Midwife just the miscarriage however not spoke in detail about it. I have also not told her I suffer from anxiety and depression. If I explained what he gone on to her or a doctor what would be the probability of being aloud an elective csection? :(