So DD is 1 in a month, I've just got a new job which is ideal, starting in a couple of weeks. Nursery is all ready to go, finances are good, but after AF was due yesterday, I did a test and I got a BFP this morning.
I'm stunned and thrilled and terrified all at once! DD was born at 29 weeks due to complications and this pregnancy is likely to have a similar outcome, although we're now able to manage things more with experience.
I don't know how to process this, my DSis is desperate for another baby and we've not 'tried', I feel so guilty but I want this baby so much. We've also had 2 previous losses so terrified I'm going to miscarry in the first few weeks of my new job.
How do I even begin to process these feelings?