I'm in such a state.
I've recently found out that I'm newly pregnant with my second baby and after months of being extremely broody, I was absolutely ecstatic when I found out. This quickly changed.
Over the weekend it was my first baby's 2nd birthday and we had a party with close family and friends. I have a very strained relationship with my mother in law and it erupted at the party when she violent grabbed my arm in rage during an argument over what time we were cutting the cake. I quickly reacted and said I don't touch me I'm pregnant, but she is so spiteful that she didn't care. My in-laws have always been hostile towards me but even more so since I had my first baby because they have resented me for not letting them babysit more or letting my baby sleep at their house when they believe it's their right.
For the rest of the party I was forced to put a brave face on, but at the end when everyone left, my father in law told my husband he was disgusted with my behaviour and that I was deliberately causing trouble and then my in-laws walked out and we haven't spoken since. My main issue is that even though my husband has said he is not bothered about having a relationship with his parents, I feel absolutely gutted, angry and bitter that this is how I've started my second pregnancy. I feel so down and lost and nobody understands how attacked I feel.