Not sure how rational my thought processes are right now but could use some opinions I guess.
Dc2 is due tomorrow. I also have an ELCS booked having had an EMCS (kind of - long story) with dc1.
I was on the fence about whether to attempt a vbac this time but at 37 weeks I booked in the ELCS for my due date. This seemed a good middle ground as I was worried about the increased risks of vbac with a bigger baby (and according to growth scans/previous baby she will be over the threshold for increased risk if I go over) and the increased stillbirth risk after 40 weeks with a previous section - not least because I've had a few incidences of reduced movements for which ordinarily they would have suggested induction. BUT I was hoping to go into labour before ideally... And i haven't.
So here I am, section tomorrow, thinking "yes, I had some pretty valid reasons for doing things this way, but it really isn't how I hoped things would pan out", and "I wonder if there's another way - or anything else I can do - as I really would like to know what a contraction feels like in my lifetime, even if I have a section in the end, I just want to know what that's like....".
Thoughts? Do I sound like I'm just having a wobble? Could they are least try breaking my waters or something when I go in tomorrow or am I clutching at straws, and are they straws I would even want to get a hold of if I could?? Aaargh, help!