Worrying constantly

[Cohyn92]

Hello

It's my first time posting on here. I'm currently 7 weeks pregnant with my amazing fiancé who ive been with for over 7 years. Its out first baby and we couldn't be more happy to have finally conceived.
The problem at the moment is that I'm suffering with a couple of things, the usuals such as sickness (nausea stays with me all day), migraines and constant exhaustion. I've been off work this week with it and feel super guilty but I've honestly been so weak I just couldn't think of the stress of my job to juggle too.
Anyway, the reason for my whinging today (sorry) is that I'm really suffering badly with anxiety. My gorgeous OH was diagnosed with a brain tumour late last year and it was honestly the hardest, most scary 6 months of his..our life. He was so brave and had it removed and then cancer treatment. Everything went to plan (thank god) and his 3 month scan showed up all clear (WOOOP!) we just need to keep going back throughout the years to check all is well still. I honestly stayed so strong throughout for him and he says I'm what got him through it bless him. I just sometimes worry I'm not over it myself despite my strong front, but then I guess I never will be.
Anyway, before I found out I was pregnant I was already anxious enough about him.. but now its at another level, I spend my days petrified our happy bubble is going to burst with his health or that I'll lose the baby and bring more heart break.

All I want is our happy ever after that is looking so promising for us..

Did anyone else suffer with terrible worry throughout pregnancy? Does it get any better?

Sorry for the long post guys i just needed to vent!

I did, yes, because a close friend lost her OH when she was pregnant with their DD. Honestly- and I hope this doesn't sound morbid- the only thing that made me feel less anxious was sorting out our life insurance. I wanted to know that if anything happened to either of us, we would at least be financially ok if not emotionally.

Other than that, you just have to focus on what you do have (and just look at what you've come through!) and appreciate everything and try your hardest not to think too much about the what ifs. It's hard- especially when you've had a big shock like you have- but you just have to try your best.

Also, speak to your midwife about access to counselling services if you think it's something you might benefit from. Might be worth considering?

Congratulations on your pregnancy too! X

Thanks Magicmoneytree. You are right about the life insurance, its awful to have to think about but so important. Luckily we both have it from before his illness when we got our mortgage (was a condition to get the house).

Thanks for your advice, I'll definitely mention my worries to my midwife- and thank you for your congratulations and time to reply to me. Much appreciated.

Aww- thank you so much.

Hopefully the worst is over with now and we can just focus on happy times

Xxx

Wow bless you, you sound like you've had an awful time. But fingers crossed that's your bad luck done with.
R. E anxiety I suffer in general andcame off meds when doctors found out I was ttc as the ones I was on wernt good for a baby. He offered diff and I went cold turkey. I'm that time we had alot of bad luck.. With jobs, dps ex being a cow etc. But I stayed off them.. After surgery then finally conceiving were over the moon. Dp is extatic and so am I. But I can't help but feel something will go wrong. Like an mmc or something. Only symptoms I have is sore boobs. And tiredness.. But then again I had none with DS. Which some may find lucky but I can't help but worry that my hormones aren't right and ill lose it, even tho had early scan nhs and private and seen HB twice flickering away. I just have a constant worry, especially Ifi have cramps or something.
I'm. Told it's pretty normal though to worry but I'm defo mentioning to midwife at booking appointment as I don't want my anxiety to get out of control x