Hi all, apologies I think I've started a record number of threads the last few months!
I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed and would really appreciate some opinions on how to handle my next steps.
I am 15 weeks pregnant following two chemical pregnancies. I thought I'd dealt with them well but I have been more and more anxious as this pregnancy has progressed. I was convinced I'd had a mmc before my 12 week scan but despite everything looking fine and coming back low risk for the screening tests, the feeling is only increasing and I can't shake it. I'm finding it hard to sleep and i keep thinking the baby has died and I don't know it 
I feel guilty that I'm not enjoying my pregnancy when I have no right to feel this way and women have genuine high risk pregnancies and I should be grateful I am not one of them. I'm avoiding people as I don't want to tell them in case I have to later tell them something has gone wrong.
This leads me to my next problem. As a manager, work are pressurising me to tell my team so they can plan work cover, the directors and senior managers know but not my juniors and the wider team. I understand they need to know but was hoping to wait until my next check in two weeks and hoping my anxiety will be under control then.
I'm just so wary of it becoming public knowledge and people asking about it. I know I should just announce it and shake off these worries but I'm struggling. Advice? Sorry this is so long.