Hi
Not really sure why I'm posting.... I'm 7 weeks pregnant with my third pregnancy in 6 months. My first was a mmc baby died at 6+4 approx and we found out at just under 11 after spotting we'd had a scan at 6 weeks and saw a strong heartbeat. 2nd was a chemical. We've had an early scan as I had spotting and pain baby was doing fine, measuring slightly ahead of dates and heart beat there.
Since the scan I've had a couple more days of brown spotting only when I wipe. Got another private scan booked next Thursday as I needed reassurance.
Pregnancy symptoms all there and strong (but they were last time) am getting some cramps but that can also be usual I guess.
I feel loads of emotions, I feel completely detached from the pregnancy as I'm too scared that it's all going to end badly. I get little moments of excitement which I immediately suppress as I don't want to tempt fate and part of me worries that we've lost the baby already but just don't know. I feel sad because I want to enjoy being excited about being pregnant.
I'm hoping that at 10 weeks when I have harmony if I get that far I might relax a bit about it. People have said to me you just have to remember today I am pregnant but what if I'm not? What if my body has tricked me again?
I've read all the stats that tell me the likelihood is all is ok, on the flip side people who've had 2 miscarriages despite seeing the heartbeat 17% don't work which seems really high!!
If you've got to the end of this thanks for reading I'm not expecting anything but think I just needed to get it out!