i had no idea what sex baby i was having, with the others i was pretty sure they were girls and they were, this time i didnt want to know but i had a scan a few weeks back and it was obvious.
it sounds really silly but i was so disppointed when i found out. I didnt have a gender preference but i did want it to be a surprise and since finding out have felt so much less excited about it.
I have finally managed to pull myself together and just be happy that baby is ok but i feel disppointed that i spent a few weeks feeling the way i did i alos feel guilty about it. People used to say i expect you want a boy this time and i said no but i didnt mean i had anything against a boy, just that i love my girls so much i would be happy to have more of them. But now i think poor baby will think i dont wat him cos he is a boy i know thats silly but i keep thinking about it