I posted the other day about how this was my 3rd pregnancy in 6 months after an ectopic and a miscarriage, and how I was scared and paranoid. Those things still hold true, I'm shitting bricks in every way possible....
I had my miscarriage on the 23rd of May, doctors said to pregnancy test after 3 weeks and if it showed anything I had to go back to the doctor. I tested every few days until I could no longer see even the faintest line (sounds bizarre but it helped me deal with it to see it fading).
Friday 23rd of June.....I heard a song on the radio and couldn't stop crying, I'm not a crier and it has always been the earliest sign of pregnancy that I've had, so I thought I'd better do a test because it's so out of character for me, I don't even get weepy on my period. I got a fairly good line with the first response test I did, and other than being happy about it and worried because of previous history I didn't think much more about it, I just assumed the miscarriage had been my 'period' and that I'd ovulated and gotten lucky this month (it's been too hot to go on the usual baby making shagathon) .
My mum then asked was I sure it wasn't left over hormones from my miscarriage, I was fairly sure it's not as I saw the line fade away to nothing, but it's planted that seed of doubt in my mind.
Now I'm thinking it's all in my head, I think I've jumped the gun telling work (I have to as soon as I know because my job carries a serious infection risk from diseases from livestock), they sent me home due to the risk and are trying to find other work for me etc.
I've been googling if it's possible to be pregnant straight after a miscarriage and there are as many yes's as no's, im now super confused.
I want to go to my doctor and ask but there won't be an appointment on Monday as there never are. I want to see my specific GP also as he has dealt with all my pregnancies. But I don't feel I can book an appointment as I don't know what is happening with work, they only do bloods in the morning, I know I'm allowed time for baby appointments but I was barely 2 months into this role anyway, I don't want to keep asking for time out and causing more trouble.
Basically the stress is mounting up, I'm not coping very well and I can't see how I can reduce my stress levels, because none of the things that are stressing me out are resolvable.
Rant over sorry I needed to vent.