So.. I found out last week that I am 6-8 weeks pregnant with my boyfriend of three years. We have known each other for six years and have a great relationship but have always said we never wanted children.
After finding out I was pregnant I initially thought I wanted to keep it, despite the struggles I would face.. but my boyfriend wanted to terminate because of financial and physical reasons such as not having a career or a permanent contract/income.
I started my dream Apprenticeship four months ago and have been really enjoying it but recently I have faced the struggle of extreme fatigue and sickness; making me a less valuable employee.
If I keep this baby I will frustrate the manager as I have undertaken a lot of training recently so that I can take workload pressure off two separate departments.
I understand that legally I cannot be fired for this and must be given statutory maternity pay but I can't help but feel guilty about leaving for 52 weeks as I was employed originally to take pressure off other departments and get experience to start my career.
In addition to this, I was raised by my Mum who had me at 15 and then became a single mum at 28 so I have always been extremely aware of the struggles of having children, which leads me to believe I shouldn't go through with this.
On the other hand, I have already built a bond with my unborn child and don't think I could handle the emotional and mental pain of going through an abortion.
I don't know what to do. My relationship and career are at risk but I don't want to do something I will regret.