30 weeks and I feel very depressed

[Jade27xx]

My partner left me when i was 16 weeks pregnant, I've not coped well with the full process and the thought of being on my own with his child is scaring me..

Im finding it very difficult to bind with my baby, i spend most of my nights crying missing my old life..

Im.not on here to be judged because I know ill make a great mummy I just don't know how to cope woth it all

Have you spoken to your midwife lovely?

I've had depression on and off since I was a teen and pregnancy has had a real negative impact on my mental health, but my midwife referred me for some really good, non judgemental mental health support just for pregnant women. It might be worth speaking to them, you deserve the support x

I told my midwife at my last check up and she tild me it will just pass, I'm not next scheduled to see her for another 5 weeks but ive felt like this for weeks now.

I try go to work and uni and smile but who am I kidding im so unhappy with the way things have turned out

What are you afraid of?
Do you have any kind of support in RL?

Ring them, you don't have to limit contact just to when your appointments are. Things are hard and you need them.
I called mine up and she put my referral through, didn't even need to go in and see her x

I'm afraid of how things will turn out, i do love my baby will all my heart but I'm afraid I can't look after her properly because of the way I'm feeling

I dont know if it will ever go away and her dad is doing nothing but making my life hell, I've called me doctor so many times telling her i feel depressed and they said im too young to go on medication jusy to try CBT and take some time off work although I think sitting in my house alone makes me feel worse

Are you able to speak to another doctor?

Do you have any friends/family that you could talk to? It's normal to worry about how you will do things when the baby is here. X