Choo choo all aboard the hormone train...

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Just looking for a place to rant, sorry!

Am 33 weeks with DD2, DD1 is almost 3. DH works nights and weekends. I work office hours with an hours commute.

Have been absolutely fine this pregnancy I know I'm very lucky in that respect, both physically and mentally. And then four days ago I unknowingly boarded the crazy pregnant lady hormone train. I feel irritable, anti social, anxious, pissed off, sorry for myself, then pissed off at myself for not "embracing the miracle" (will probs be last pregnancy and was v much wanted). Am really pissed off at DH about something from the weekend, that I can logically talk myself out of, its not a huge deal, really dont want to start an argument with him, but inside its seething away and I want to point out in great detail what an ungrateful git he is (not true, perhaps a tad thoughtless at a stretch).

Sat at my desk wondering whether the next person who speaks to me is going to get their head ripped off, or unwittingly make me cry (probably by asking how I'm doing or something equally as shocking lol )

This is not who I am, I hate feeling like such a troll! Not sure whether I need a good cry, a slap, or a hug...

Oh and also feeling more wound up because the group of mums I usually chat with is not an option. One of our group is going through a slow miscarriage, so can't imagine anything less sensitive that posting about what a fed up pregnant woman I am feeling :(

When I am feeling really out of sorts (hormonal or no) I find it helps to not berate myself as I just get more grumpy. I once heard a Buddhist monk talking about fear, and how when he encountered it in himself he'd smile and say 'hello little fear, I see you!'. This is much better if you imagine an elderly Vietnamese man saying it.

Wave internally at yourself and say 'hello little murderous rage, I see you!'. Which if nothing else, should hopefully make you laugh and stop it all getting locked in the annoyed cycle.

Haha thank you, that most certainly did make me laugh! Will keep imagining the little vietnamese man, he seems friendly :)