Scared of waters breaking *trigger warning*

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I had an abortion in 2015 which was devastating.

Family doesnt know. Only 1 friend knows who supported me from start to finish.

I am now due to give birth soon, and mostly feeling positive about birth.

However, I am so worried about the moment my waters break as I feel it will bring back emotions from 2015.

The abortion was a surgical one, and before being anethitized for the surgery my waters broke. It wasnt anything I was expecting and it hadnt been mentioned as something that might have happened.
I didnt know what to do.
It happened at a point in the day where my friend had left to get some lunch as I was just waiting around and was told I wouldnt be taken for surgery for another hour or so.
I was alone and surrounded by a puddle until one of the nurses came in and realised.

I was sorted out all by the time my friend came back.

I obviously dont remember much else about the abortion as I was put under for the surgery, so any flash backs or nightmares have always been about the waters breaking.

Is there anything I can do to get past this? I know its unlikely for my waters to break until I am actually in hospital in labour, but I dont want what should be such a happy time to be overshadowed by such deep sadness.

I had a medical abortion and my waters went very quickly, I wasnt expecting it as they had only just put in the second pessary to make my cervix dilate and said it was going to be a while before anything happened. It was really shocking and the physical sensation was really shocking and upsetting for me.
I dont know if I will ttc again but if I did I think I would look into something like the hypno birthing where you create an encouraging mental image of the sensations of birth (like the cervix dilating being a rose bud opening) I think I would try to create a positive association in my mind. That's just an initial thought. No idea if that would be helpful in real life.

I just wanted to say I completely understand your fears. Wishing you a healing and positive birth experience and a healthy baby! xxx

Another thought is being in water for as much of the labour as possible, which might make it feel different. xxx

Mine broke during my abortion to. I've given birth twice since and it was a totally different experience so try not to worry.