I was 43 last month and DH and I have been TTC since our DS was born at the end of 2011 (I also have a DSD who's 16). All we've had to show for it are 5 MCs (mix of medical and clinical, all mercifully well before 12 weeks). I'd kind of resigned myself to no more, and am actually pretty certain I'm edging into peri-menopause given recent experiences of major PMT rage and sodding awful periods. And then I got a BFP. And another one. Only 6 weeks at this stage but am feeling pretty ropey so HCG levels are obviously doing their thing. DH is delighted (and is hoping for twins given my age, FFS). I am thrilled too but also more than a little bit terrified. Weirdly not so much about another MC - if it happens it happens - but more about how I'll feel as a properly older mum (was 37 when I had DS and didn't feel old then!). Am also freaking out as anything I read about having a baby when over 40 seems to be all about Downs / genetic abnormalities / how bloody ridiculous it is to be even considering birth at my age (whereas it was a midwife-led unit and a straightforward water birth with DS). Definitely feels like I'm in last chance saloon for a baby and I am happy about it, but I just get so depressed when I read anything... Any positive (or at least not quite so doom-and-gloom) stories out there that can inspire me and get me through the next few weeks of nausea and emotional f*ckwittage??