Sorry if this ends up long I just need to vent/advice.
I'm 27w pregnant. Have always struggled with anxiety and depression - depression is manageable and hasn't been a problem for years apart from a couple of bad periods, anxiety is the main problem.
I'm also 21, a student + work PT. Don't yet live with my partner because I'm still in student accommodation, not an ideal situation but we're both busy with work and he only lives an hour away.
DP is incredibly supportive, kind, loving, couldn't ask for a better partner and dad to our baby. He knows about my mental health struggles but I don't think he realises quite how much I'm struggling during this pregnancy.
I don't really know how to describe it but my mood is SO varied. Within an hour I go from hyperactive (rapidly tidying the house, dancing to music, happy) to extremely sad (laying in bed, staring at the wall/roof, barely moving). Because I don't see him every day (Just weekends) DP doesn't know this. He does know how much I'm struggling with body confidence - always been tall and curvy size 14, red hair, so I stand out and was always okay with that. This far into the pregnancy I'm 20lbs heavier, feeling fat and unattractive and I hate myself. I spend far too long getting ready, changing outfits simply to walk to the shop or uni, where I previously wouldn't have cared. I hate myself naked, I try to get changed in private when I am with DP. He always tells me I'm beautiful, sexy etc. I can't believe him, I feel terrible. All my underwear is unsexy and horrible, and because I feel so unattractive its killing our sex life - and we're in our 20s! On my birthday he was being lovely and trying to initiate things. I cried and said I couldn't. We've gone from sex a couple of times a weekend (as this is when I see him) to once a month, ish.
It all just seems to be getting worse. But I can't tell, is this simply pregnancy hormones combined with previous issues, or do I need to speak to someone?
Any responses appreciated x